i feel bad.
i didn’t realise that raya will be next week. did not feel any anticipation at all. and i do not intend to do any visiting unless i’m pointed with a dagger.
(i think my dad will be inclined to use his keris though.)
why leh i feel like this one? maybe because i’ve found the preparations for raya to be over-rated. maybe because exams are held soon after the day of raya. maybe because i’ve been too pre-occupied with work or/and online shopping. maybe because i don’t feel like it for any cause of ‘celebrations’.
or maybe because the energy has been dissipated for the anticipation of this.
i think i should get a grip. it’s getting rather too numb.